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Living In My World Of
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MeMyself&I
NuRuL SyAzWaNi8TeeN Republic Poly DIDM Likes The UnUsuaL ♥Attached To >> Hairi Azman 101010♥™ Lullaby
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Monday, 7 July 2008
Guilty!! nort only i'm guilty...i also felt guilty...i dunno why muz i let ppl around me(ppl tat i love)suffer?i didnt do it on purpose.but i still dun understannd myself y muz i hurt them?i feel tat i'm too evil!!!im bad...but trying to be gd.laz sat i didnt go mendaki n madrasah...i skip claz n mai mom caught me..i dunno y i dun wanna go madrasah..no mood to go there.at home i was punched by mai dad.HARD!!fer a few tymez...my dad lost control until he lyke kne possess.my mum told me tat b4 my mum gort married wit hym.my dad ader blaja ILMU dunno wat ilmu was dat.my mum perna tanye my dad but he told my mum nthng.i was scared dat tyme mai dad was in tat position...he was lyke kene MENURON performing SILAT.my mum told me tat he saw hym lyke tat a few tyme already.my parent actually wanted to send me to the GH.but i don want...so my mum juz told me if i make such truant or wat kind of behavior she will see my tcher and make me sign notebk again.... i want to change!!!i 'm sick n tired being a BAD gerl!!on tat nite my mum ask me to forgive my dad.but i didnt..i cant accept wat my dad hv done to us.it's really hurt wen TERKENANG the insident.i cant fergv him....i dunno y.since dat day..i hv no respect to him already but i didnt show it.i cant trust him.and im actually scared of him if he did smthng to me.i cant accept wat he hv done.N i will nvr fergv him.actually wen he punched me in my heart saying dat ..JUST KILL ME!!I DESERVED TO BE DEAD!AND I'M WILLING TO DIE!! WEN I DIE U WILL BE PUNISHED!i rela mati dari tanggung penderitaan ini!but all tiz was stopped by my mum protecting me.I dun mynd to be PUNCHED!if i die i will nort let anybody aroung me suffer.tk menyusahkn org!! i HATE my dad! i dunno why.i cant help it already!!watever it is he is still my dad! thank God I'm still alive!! If nort laz Sat nie i would be dead already.Near to death! Syg...I LOVE YOU so much!!!i tknk kehilanganmu..i also bersalah terhadap u... i want smbdy help me lead to the right path.i dun wanna repet the same mistakez!!MISERY! |
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