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Monday, 29 September 2008
sch rocks!! i love saktun's story telling. but we were still slacking although exams were around the corner. we cant concentrate bcoz RAYA coming. Tmr half-day!! =D + =( bcoz my dad is at home. and i haf to help to kemas rumah. lazy sia. i went home wit syaza atikah n daus. splited up at the Sheng Siong there. i and syaza went to MRT stn to top up my Ez-Link. we split up at her blk. i took 811E and alight at the intchnge. i took 800 to lib to return books. i find some books to draw fer my observation drawings. i haf nt start anything. i haf nt study fer my SS. and i gonna start nw. today i supposed to play bunga api wit my fwen. but i haf alot of things to be done at home. sori guys!! To my Muslim Fwens: SELAMAT HARI RAYA! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN. KALAU TERSILAP KATA KE TERKASAR BAHASA, BUAT KORANG MARAH KE. APAPE KORANG TK HAPI NGN AKU KE, MAAFKN AKU YE?!! salam sayang; NURUL SYAZWANI. akuY korangz! ------------------------------------------- akhir kata: i noe wat u feel. and i really understand tht. wateva happens i will always love you. I PROMISE! and i will never let you down. and i really hope you do! SAYAAANG YOU ALL ALWAYS!! bubbye! ily! tc! Y Friday, 26 September 2008
i woke up late. i suppose to go out at 11am. but i woke at 11.18am instead. i quickly bathe n siap2. i went out at 11.45am to meet wan n if at the bus stop. i actually plan to go to lib. but i woke up late. maybe bcoz of ysterday came back at 12.15am. went out wit my aunt dad n grandpa. my dad drove us around. b4 tat i went out to mit wan. we lpk wit his bro's fwen fadly n firdaus. sch was ok. eng paper; juz keep my finger cossed. hope i can pass thiz tyme. i get back my mly prelim. i got B4. which is not too good. k back to today. i took 811. met them and head to masjid. along the way i saw my cuzzy ijad. den we sat at 200 pluz. they didnt go fer prayers. aft dat we went to NP. den saw wan's bro n Din. walk2 at the NP. den.. i went back wit wan. we took 812 home. i actually need to be home early. coz nk uat kueh raye. mls seyy nk uat. i seriously hv no mood fer raye. i feel i dunn wanna raye larh sey. hmmmm... tonite i went out again. yay!! =D -------------------------------- i really miss you,syg! looove you lots!! bubbye! tc! Y Labels: no mood for raya...... Wednesday, 24 September 2008
YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY why am i hving this such feeling? why am i so Jealous of u? i hate tiz feeling. and i am nt gonna start again. why?why? why am i angry? and why am i angry wit u? why am i angry wit u syg? it's so sudden. wat hv u done wrong? but... why these days u r so nt u? why cant u hear the impt words tat came out of my mouth? then u say tat i didnt say. then u were mad at me. i felt so cnfused.wrong.guilty. wat did i do? did i say the right thing? why?why?why? i wanna noe the ans. i juz wanna tell u tat i miss u alot! i love you,syg! i will always love u.... remember tat!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Labels: whys and whys... long day.............. today obviously better than ystrday. no assembly again. coz it's gonna rain. CHEM: 2 periods. go through wkbk. slack. ms soo came in fer hair check. luckily haircheck. nt spotcheck. MATHS: get back prelim paper 2. mr chia miss out my marks. which i suppose to get 3 marks instead he gave me 0 marks fer tht qn. thts a lot fer me. so i get 25 marks fer paper 2. haha. den we told mr chia bout the mock b4 hari raya. PHY: opocot! ok larh. only his drawing sux!! haha. RECEZ: sit at the art gallery. tok abt prom. HIST: bored. ENG: PHUSSYCAT DOLLS!!! lol!! haha. MT: sit outside clazrm. chit chat. SS: stayed outside. chit chat. imitate S____'s walk. eee..so WTF! lyke minah seyy.. GELI SAK!! wateva!! ASSEMBLY: bored. so i n atika played wit CHICKYCHICKS and Fayyad's monkey. they played soccer. haha. den we did our survey. den to stay back. GOOD NEWS!! mock exam CANCLED!! hooray!! went home wit syaza n atikah. i felt today is quite a long day... really. ------------------------------------------ tmr ENG exam. still i didnt feel the exam mood. catwalk. learn wit DAUS. my best instructor tht i ever had!! wit bitchy poses! i looove it!! im so talented!! coz.. i gonna be the: NEXT TOP MODEL!! hahaQ! jk.jk.!! and i gonna go... PHUSSY PHUSSY!!meow!! thts all fer today. bubbye! miss u! ily! tc! muaahs! <3 Y Tuesday, 23 September 2008
life for today is a lil bit bored. lessons quite bored. my head start to feel pain. berdeyut-denyut. i hope its nt gonna be worst like i was in Pri 4. had Migrain. cant help it. too painful. but today is a lil bit better than last Tuesday. until i lie on the sch floor coz i cnnt take it animore. art is okay. but i did nthng except drawing and using dyes&spray paint. quite fun using different mediums. i juz tahan the pain. i tot of going home wit Syaza & Atikah. but both went home straight. didnt wait fer me. =( i tot of going straight home. Daus & If was waiting fer me outside the art room. i went to the canteen wit them. met WAWAN. i stayed back fer awhile. my head is getting WORST! i cant help it! instead i think i made him irritated. dunno wats wrong wit me. im sorry if i irritate u juz nw. and make u angry. a dunno wat hv i done wrong. plz tell me.. went home wit Daus. i took 811 home. i saw ATQA. den i met my cuzzy, Liyana at the void deck. i tok to her fer awhile. den wen up to my houz wit her. i saw my dad outside my houz, cleaning the windows. i tot which BANGLA cleaned my windows. hahaz! haiz.. my plan fer today LARI!! i tot i wanna study SS aft taking a nap. but instead i end up entertain my cuzzonZ. den at abt 5 pluz i took a nap. woke up during Azan Maghrib. break-fast. eat Goreng Pisang wit Grape drink. aft dat read nwspaper. TODAY's *NeWs on wawanie's: a 4 yr old girl was slashed by her bestfwen. so pity... Products REMOVED frm shelves by 7-eleven: FROZEN PRODUCTS: -Youcan temptation cup ice cream -Youcan passion strwberry yoghut ice cream -Youcan black sesame sensation ice cream -Mini Cornetto cone/Mint & Tiramisu -Moo sandwich -Magnum mini multipack -Mini poppers vanilla -Mini poppers choc -Wall all natural mango -Umakabo choc DAIRY PRODUCTS: -Dutch LAdy milk products -Monmilk milk products BISCUITS: -Oreo wafer sticks -Nabisco in a biskit chicken -Want Want Take One baby bites -Want Want Take One baby bie carrot CONFECTIONERY: -Dove hazelnut almond and raisin choc -Dove hazelnut choc -Dove milk choc -M&M choc plain -M&M choc peanut -Mentos yoghurt bottle -Snickers peanut -Passion choc *from newpaper(23sept08) due to milk scandal in China. and rmbr WHITE RABBIT CREAM CANDY DONT EAT! and much more. wanna noe raed the nwspapers or watch NEWS 5 ToNIGHT! report written by: nurul syazwani signing off...... -------------------------------------------------- bubbye! ily! tc! Y Monday, 22 September 2008
as usual,came sch wit mai Syg saw Daus at the art gallery tiz morning no assembly coz early in the morning raining. the parade square is wet. so there's no morning assembly. everybdy are to return to their own classes. Eng: 2 periods. went through report writting at the AVA room. we crack jokes. we were the noisious grp. imagine fer prom night.. ppl dance by the poolside you were there sun-tanning or even worst 'MOON-TANNING'! ppl buy their dresses at FOREVER 21 u buy ur dress at BIMLA(mly shop selling Jubah & baju kurongs)!! ppl buy thier accessories at CHAMELEON u buy ur accessories at PASAR MALAM!! LOL! and much2 more!!! Chem: aft 2 periods of laughing... we soon get tired n sleepy. i fell asleep during chem. we go through the essay qns. P.E: haha. PI'E. jeritan sepi. hahaaahahahahaaaa....... we went lib. i read SEVENTEEN magazine. abt PROM. RECESS: stayed at the lib. SS: self study. MATHS: get back our prelim papers. i get 22 for P2 n 24.5 for P1. so badly done! slalu ponz. HIST: went AVA again. watch video abt JAPAN. PHY: I LOOOOVE IT!! SAKTUN ROX!! haha.. crack jokes again. tok abt URINE. COKE. Coke beb!! haha! opocot!! we also hv SPECIAL ASSEMBLY. watch ppl kena canning. today end sch at 2.20pm. haiz.. today suppose to end sch at 1.40pm.. haiz.. i tot of goin home early today. but nvrmd. istayed back wit IF DAUS and nt fergetting.. WAWAN<3. went home at 4pm. i fall asleep in the bus. shocking. my dad was at home. den i took a nap until break-fast. i start on my art soo aft dat. and nw im taking a break. update my blog. wat i hope fer today doesnt happen. *RELIEVED* and hope tat it will nvr happen! insyallah. ----------------------------------------- enough fer today! ily!! lookin forward tmr. bubbye. tc! muaaks! <3 YWAWANIEY Sunday, 21 September 2008
Ystrday went out wit Syaza.We planned to wear PINK shirt and WHITE skinnys. we went to wdlnds lib fer art research.we saw Mus at the mrt stn. otw to the lib we saw Syami wit his fwen. at the lib we saw my pri fwen Firman n his fwen. we were so tired searching fer syaza's art research.aft borrowing books,we went to Cozwae Pt. we bought CHICKY CHICKS and SHOE LACES. tht CHICKY is so damn cute!! thts why we bought as a fwenship thingy. we had a great time ystrday. today i woke up at 8.45am coz im going out wit my aunt MIMI. we supposed to meet at 10am but she came late. at abt 10.20am she arrive at the meeting place. we head to Paya Lebar coz she want to buy cushion cover. at the bazzar i saw my mendaki fwen but sad to say i dunno wat's her name. LOL! aft tht we went to City Hall. looking fer hari raya shoes. i went to various shops lyke Charles & Keith,preetyFIT. but i couldnt find any shoes tht i want. Aft tht we went to Habourfront. at last i found a perfect shoe. I LOOOVE IT!!! but i cant get wat i really5 want tht was on the shelf. so sad.. it is so FABULOUS!! but there's no size fer me. then i get the other pair. ok larh..quite nice and i grab it! thx aunt Mimi! aft tht we headed straight home. but i didnt. i called nicha. and i decided to go to her house. otw when i was sms-ing my mom a guy wearing PINK stripes shirt,n specs head towards me. as i was so bz sms-ing my mom, i didnt notice who he was. tht guy approch me and ask me where was i going. to my horror, he is my...... BOYFRIEND Ridzwan.Y shocked. he say dont be scared. i was there surprised stoink coz juz woke up frm nap in the trian. but i think my reaction cnfrm KLEKEK larh seyy. Lol!! then i ask him. he said tht he's goin to Johor . i saw his mom bro n maybe his aunt n adeq sedare. until nw i still terkejot. and im looking forward tomorrow. wats gonna happen in sch. we gotta see. tata! bye! tc! ------------------------------------------ love you guys lots!! u made my day! Y Friday, 19 September 2008
so today i brush through..need to rush off!! so sad....haiz...really.....so KECEWA wit them..tk sangka...cnnt be trusted anymore!! all linked up!! actually i intend to blog on MOn but i went o Geylang wit mom n Aril.and the rest of the day im bz wit art n other stuffs!! lpz satu..satu...ape nk jdi?semua ader hikmah nye...i hv seen all !! i noe im doing the right thing!! alhamdulillah im back wit NUR SYAZA BTE ABD MAJID. and i hope i will treasure tat!! sorry fer wat ive done to u previously. i love u lots as my BESTFREND!! and i miss someone tat hv been cheering us up!! i really dunnoe wat hv happpen to tat person..haiz..so sad!!tat SLUD has been poisoning tat person's mind!!propaganda i shud say.. haiz..now i've really seen hu is right n hu is wrong.and im really grateful tat im in a right path i shud say...thank ALLAH fer tat!! i hope everything will come back as per normal. AND I REALLY REALLY HOPE TAT .. TAT BITCH WILL NOT BE WIT HIM REALLY!!!SO DESPO!!CIRCLES OF MALE!! TAT'S WHY HER RELATIONSHIPS ALL CAN'T KEKAL LAMA!! AND I HOPE TAT THE GUY HU LIKE HER/"LOVE" HER WILL OPEN HIS EYES WIDE AND SEE WHO SHE REALLY IS!!AND I WANT TO TEL HIM TAT U WILL SOON GET FED-UP WIT GUYS TAT KEEP BOTHERING UR RELATIONSHIP!!AND I SAY TIZ BCOZ IT'S NT TAT IM JEALOUS BUT I REALLY PITY HIM REALLY ALTHOUGH I DIDNT NOE HIM WELL!! AND I ADVICE HIM NT TO HV HER AS UR GERL REALLY!! BUT IF U REALLY STUBBORN..I DUNNO WAT TO SAY..N U WILL REGRET IT!! i really enjoy tiz dayz...wit IF DAUS N SYAZA..and not fergeting RASUL fer being together as one.i really miss u all!!thx fer everyting guys!! SCARED!!FUNNY!!AND I HOPE NTHG WILL HAPPEN TO US!!!HAHA!! u noe i noe!! --------------------------------------------- tat's all fer today..gtg!! bye! ily! muaacks! <3 hahaz.. today eat ice kacang wit syaza n maybe rasul!! haha Sunday, 14 September 2008
The Negative Me!! I dunno why i kept making sins during tiz Ramadhan...it tempt me of doing it again and again which i kept telling myself nort to do it!! I'm weak!! Wat's wrong wit me?Seriously! i've got to be strong..i'm trying to change a new Nurul Syazwani. A better one. Not the old-me who is going worse day by day! when am i gonna change? on 12 Sept 08,FRI..i dun rmbr tat i shooed him..Really! and tat day was our 5th mth sharing of love.but i 've already appologised to him. But i found tat i am stubborn,and i said is always right,selfish.......dat's me!!! i doesn't really care abt others.and i juz bothered to care for the circle of people around me.. i ignored the problems tat occured which happens minority in my life. i dun really bother abt ppl...i only bother of my own stuffs tat occurs in my daily life! on these days i dont even bother abt my dad..slm him also i dont really bother!!!i dunno why i hated him so much! hatred is wat i felt! i did not chat wit him either! I also hv tiz feelings towards some ppl!! and i think tats why i really ignored them!! Bcoz of HATRED, PAIN & JEALOUSY towards smbdy,i really ignored them! but these ppl who are really impt in my life!! and i really 'erase' them in my life! like they did nt really existed in my daily life! i hv pretended tat i nvr talk or seen them but in fact; in reality,i really contact with them..they do/dont notice it!! and the sad thing is,i don really see my mistakes!! Like there are walls around me tat blocked my view of own miztakes!! and im a type of person who reaaly dont see her own mistakes unless smbdy told her..and sad the thing is; sometimes i don appologized ppl SINCERELY!! it's hard fer me.... unless i really know tat i was wrong!!! if not i won't!! Jgn harap!! Now, ppl who how really bad i am..but they seem not to see it!! I dunno wat happened to me lately!! Like my mum always says; "HATI KAU MCM BATU". EHK!!! HELLO!!!! WAT'S WRONG WIT ME?!! STOP BEING LIKE TIZ!!!! I ,MYSELF HATE IT!!!!!!!! I wanna be a good *gerl,good daughter,good friend of urs! I WISHED I COULD!!! xXxxXxxXxxXxxXxxXxxXxxXxxXxxXx punish me if you could!!! Wednesday, 3 September 2008
sweet moments FRI,290808 (SIGH) At laz our probs SETTLED! i promise i will nort contact tat ButCh ever again! He played my heart. How STUPID i am!! i felt CHEATED!Regreted! i Juz wanna throw away my memories!Hope he will nvr interfere again! Im so happy dat our claz won the ACE'S DAY N6 CLUSTER DANCE!!!hahaha.. Den aft sch i went to catch a movie wit wawan if n zal.the movie (WALL.E) so damn cute n sweet seyy...love it! i tot of goin back to YPS but nvrmd...da lmbt!! TODAY i meet him outside intchnge den we go 300pluz....abt 10am we went back to sch to take his Chem file...haha...quite funny tat happened today!!! u noe i noe!!! kekek!!Klekek!!hahahaha!!!i went to NICHAKITTY's houz.hmmmm....but i tonite can meet him coz he go breakfast wit hiz family... =( cant meet as usual...nvrmd..i hope tomoro can meet him..Miss him lotz!! Ouh Shit!!i hv nort start my studies,hmwk n ART!!!haiz....lazy arh want to do!!!!k hope i gonna start tonite!! i hv no mood fer tiz yr Raye...coz exam... =( tiz mth hv prelim n eoy exam.nxt mth i hv eoy n o levels..im nort prepared fer it!!!haiz............. _____________________________ THE_END_____________________________________ |
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