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Friday, 30 July 2010
 Every night, you make me cry. But, there's someone that is always there for me. I'm in love with you but not the person that cared alot for me. I dont know how and what I'm gonna do. Wait or move on? Many advice me to move on but i cant simply give up on you until the deal is up. Time will tell everything. Monday, 26 July 2010
It seems that after today, everything is gonna change. You cant decide. So, I have to decide and made my move. Sorry about that. We would still be friends but not as per normal? Thanks for everything. Thanks for loving you. Im giving you up slowly. Time will tell everything. Thursday, 22 July 2010
 Im late for school today. Mum did wake me up but, I said I start school late today. I lied. Sorry mum. This week i have 2 X-es. Gone case. I wanted to go school really. But what to do. I felt so different today. The weather today resembles my emotions today. I cant think straight as I'm so confused what im going thru now. It's been months I've not taste the happiness in my life. Now, half of me has gone. Hurt accompanied me thru all this while. I dont know how to erase that in me. I dont wanna hurt any further. What's in me is pain that I have to endure. I dont know how to overcome this problem. Just have to wait. Time will tell. I dont know how to express myself. Day by day i've gone insane. My problem with my family is getting better. Im lucky enough to have friends like Atin, Indah, Afiq & Valkyer etc that could cheer me up. Thanks guys. I really appreciate that. Matahariku Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu Kini kau pergi dari hidupku Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi Tak ada lagi cahaya suci Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu Berjuta warna pelangi di dalam hati Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi Takada lagi cahaya suci Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi Tuesday, 13 July 2010
 Hey peepos. It's been awhile I have not been updating here. Im in Enterprise class right now. Im the scribe today. :) But i didnt listen to what faci says and do my own stuffs. Haha. Firstly, I had a super great time with Mad' Babes last Saturday. We went to Marina Barrage. The date that we have chosen was so perfect. We didn't expect that on that day there's a carnival at MB. Later that day, we watched beautiful fireworks. Love you babes! <3 Secondly, I not been so well these few days. It's not because that I am sick. It's that I had some things in my mind that makes me sick. I may look fine from the outside, but deep down inside you dont know how much I suffer. How does it feels when someone important to you that you love does not support everything you do?? I tell you: IT'S SUCKS!! I have been dead to my family. Idk. Me or them? What i did when i reached home is to wash up and do my own stuff then sleep. I really have no mood to talk to my parents. Idk why. At home i enjoy doing my own stuff in my room. Like so Emo. Yeah, practically YES. Im expecting my family to talk to me like in other family does? I need attention from them not silence. Ive not been talking to them for a week plus?? I dont feel like talking to them anyway. Where's the love?? Thats why I enjoy going out spending my time with my friends. :) My friends are like my family now. oh, This is bad. My family are not there most of the time when i need them. Im finding happiness in my life. but how? Im just a lonely-emo bitch who wants attention from her parents and kongsi kasih sayang with other people. Im just nobody. I thought i want to lead my own life but I need them. Im big enough to thnk and make my own decision but my parnts think that i cant make my decision and i have to follow their way. Hello?? I got my own life to handle. Let me decide what I want to do in the future. I also have my life. My life doesn't consist only you, my dear family. I have my friends too. I'm a human, they are human also. I have links with other people's life. Not only you guys need me. They also need me and I need them too. Dont be selfish. Now, im not enjoying everything you just do. Im not a robot that have to listen to your every commands. Lastly, yesterday, watch movie; Despicable Me. It was a CUTE movie! i love it! <3  |
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