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Monday, 30 August 2010
 Today, Im home. Bby's working. Im studying at home. But it cant get in my brain. URRGH!! UT3 is just around the corner and im not prepared eventhough ive studied weeks earlier. There's so much thing to study. Oh gosh! *Panic* Tommorrow. What's my plan? I plan to study with Bby but i also intend to visit my secondary school. Hmm. Idk if im going because there's a few reasons i dont want to go back. The feel of hate is burning inside me. I cant bear to see it. It's safe to say, we've made a mistake in a perfect way. Beautiful mess.♥ Tuesday, 17 August 2010
blah!blah!blah!  We woke up at 11am and we planned to meet at 12pm. The weather was great! Hujan dok!! Tdo sedap! ok i know im abit kanchong!! haha! It's just that i cant wait to see you and spent time wit you bby! haha! We meet up at last cabin. hees~ Train-ed down to Plaza Singapura with bby just to ask about iPhone. Hehe!Haha! I enjoyed my day. :) thanks to my superman! He saved my day! and now he's sound asleep at Tekong. Im wide awake here. Idk whether I wanna sleep or not. Had a mass convo with Indah, Saiful, Asyura and Eddy. I had wonderful peeps. But, Im aint happy yet because of my fam. Yeah. Today is the day. Break fast at Nizam's place and it seems that bby have to work. And idk if i could come. I wished to. Im here. Still not in bed yet. I switched on my TV. PPG is on my screen. Hehe! Cute jugak ehy??!!hahaha!! Ok im bored. Oh! My neck hurts! Okay, i think im gonna sleep soon. I miss ya bby! I LOVE YOU! <3 Saturday, 14 August 2010
 Finally, School holiday is up! The day that I'm waiting for! However, I already miss my friends. :( And BBYLOVE especially! Aww.. Im so bored at home. Today is my first day of fasting after 3 days of LOA of fasting. And OMG!! Lucky me!! I received an suspicious letter which is from RP. Thank God that my mum asked me to open the letter box and Ive saved my life! This is the second letter about mt attendance. Oh Gosh! haha! Over this holidays, yeah fasting...well most importantly I have to study for my UT3. I have to get ready for next Semester. Hopefully better! Now, im bored. Bored. Bored. And BORED! haha! Hmm.. i cant stand sitting at home. Im bored. I love spending my time outside. :) Why, i feel so lonely and bored?? Bby felt the same way. And i dont why, everytime we talked and share with our problems with one another, it seems that our problems and emotions are similiar. And i truly understands how he feels as i feel the same way as he is. hmm... Anyways.. This coming Tues, Nizam inviting the Vans, Vons and Woww to his house for break fast. But Bby have to work. I really wish that Bby could be with us on Tues. :( Hmm.. is not that i dont want him to work but I want to spent time with him as well as Valkyer and them. It's been a long time that Valkyer has not gathered as whole. And i really miss them so much! I miss the time we had together; Valkyer's pit and swimming. When is the next Valkyer's outing. And i hope it's just Valkyer only. Till here peepos. Update soon. Nytes. Goodbye! PS: I miss you so badly as well as Valkyer. I LOVE YOU! <3 Friday, 13 August 2010
Haix. Talk with bby abt my life and future. Basically, i have to do something abt my studies. I need to change and i know tht. But how, idk yet. There's some things that is always in my mind tht i cant keep myself from forgeting it. It's a problem. And problems you have to face it not running away from it. Firstly, it's about my family. My dad especially. I really hope that one day they read this post. They dont know what i went thru and wat i feel so far. This is hard for as my dad wouldnt even listen to me and feel me. He expect me to listen to him all the time. But i cant simply just follow it. It's my life. I rule my life. Not anybody. They could only guide me because at the end of the day i went thru it, I feel it, i make my own decision. It's not that i think that im big enuf. Come on lah.. i need my space. I have other people that is important to me and not important to you guys that i need to spare my time with them. Dont think that only family is important. But there's others in my life is important to me. Dont think about just yourself. Think about me, my life, my commitment with others. Secondly, I have not adapt to this way of life. It's very hard for me you know and don't keep pressurise me. I know that sometimes that pressure is good to get me going. But im tired now. Too many problems that i've faced. I need a break. I dont know if all this problems are created by me; my attitude the cause of it. Yeah, I guess it is. Haix. Lastly, I prefer project based learning. I like doing projects then doing presenting everyday. Fuck RP. And i will never will love RP for whatever sake!!! Wednesday, 11 August 2010
This is my second post of the day. Im webcaming with my BbyLOVE :).I wanted to blog more just now but I ran out of words as I get too emotional. My life is different now. It changed since 310510. This is not normal for me. Or I guess I have not used to this way of my life. Yeah, that's right, I guess. I have to move on, but yeah I did right?? I did. But I've just not adapt to my life now. Hmm.. Am I happy now? Much more happy then my past? In some ways yes and some ways no. Yes because I have my friends; Vans, Vons and Woww. I have my adorable bbylove! No, because of my life that's so different now. Haix. I LOVE YOU BBYLOVE!! I'M MISSING YOU BADLY EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME. I'm so sorry about just now if my mood affect on you. :( MUAAAHHKKKSSS!!!  Here I am in the library. I went for the first meeting then partial as I have no mood to study for today and maybe for the rest of the week. I've been thinking a lot last night. I've been thinking what am I gonna do in my life. I don't even know if I'm serious about taking my diploma. My grades are bad. It affects me a lot. I've not been myself recently. I forgot how the way I used to be. Haix. Tuesday, 10 August 2010
 It's been awhile that Ive not updated here. So here it goes. Yeah, I'm attached to Muhd Afiq Bin Abdul Aziz a.k.a. Van Akel on the 4th this month. And i'm somehow part of Valkyer, the peeps that i love to hang out with and of course Indahh Woww. :) Conflicts between us made us much more more stronger and bonded now. And it's all settled. We shared tears and sorrow together; hard and pain moments. You guys really mean so much to me. <3 Last Saturday, I waited for my Bby to finish his work at SB. Thanks dear for the mango milkshake that you made for me. :) Later that day, we train-ed down to Plaza Singapura and Bby bought P.Osh for Fyra's Bday. :) After that we went to Marina Barrage and spent our great-fun time together and watched fireworks.  Yesterday, the Vans,Vons and Woww went out together to watch fireworks and Shisha later that night. AWESOME! <3 Love you peeps! and most importantly.......... I LOVE YOU MUHAMMAD AFIQ BIN ABDUL AFIQ SVUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUAAAAAHHHHHHHHKSSSSSS! |
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