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MeMyself&I
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Thursday, 30 September 2010
 Hey. Im back. I had a long day. Interview in the morning; works pretty well and have to cme again for the second interview today at 1.30pm. Met up my friend. Reached home at 2. Dressed up for Raya. Tired. Pissed. Reached home at 10pm. I've made a mess in my life. After broke up with W, my life are much more misery. Mum hates me for doing tht to W. She dont really know what happens. She dont know how i felt that time and my story. She blamed me for everything tht's alr happened. She hates people around me. My bro too. She's mad at me out of sudden when she got to know I'm with A that time. I guess she still likes W. Keep updating each other and i hate it. She smhow hates ppl/activity in my life. Haiz. I cant live with lies. I dont want to but i have to. :( Ppl says ive chnged. But i knw. I cant help it. Im smhw love my old me and parts of current life. I just dont know how to undo. Hate myself.:( Youre nt there wen i nd ya the most. F Off! Labels: ive lost myself Monday, 27 September 2010
 Hello peepos. Im always wondering why I have mostly guy friends instead of girlfriends. Hmm.. I dont know why I just cant click with girls. I tried to but i just cant. But i just see some girls so "meluat" !!! Eww!! Some girls cant resist some hardcore stuffs like going advantures, hikes etc, and dont wanna get themselves in sweat while doing sports just to maintain their looks and afraid of their make-ups soaked up in sweats! Takot make-up cair dokk!! haha! Doing sports also wanna put make-up?? Oh PUHLEASE!! WTH??! Im still searching for answer to this. Is it because that I was brought up surrounded with boys? I have 2 brothers and Im the only daughter in the family. And my cousins are mostly boys. During Holidays we use to play soccer together and do boys stuffs. When i was young i used to play with hotwheels and barbie with my bro. Thats so cute!! I remembered those days where my bro used to play girls stuffs with me and i played boys stuffs with him. And I love my childhood! :) Maybe this is the reason? :) And ive also discuss this with my fren. He also was also brought up surrounded with girls and he's abit sensitive. Maybe. Haha! But this is so COOL!!! :) I've learnt alot while being frens with guys esp i entered secondary and poly life. :) Being with them makes me feel strong inside and somehow physically fit and I could understand them better. And that's why i could get along with them so well. The brotherhood, tht's what i like about them. Doing guys stuff is much more fun then doing girls stuffs. I love riding and i wish to ride! U may say that im a tomboy. But im not. Im just an ordinary girl who loves doing thrills. :) But some people find me weird which i just dont understand why. At least, there's no fights like the girls always have like jealousy for boys case. Urrgh!! I hate it! However, with mostly guys frens surrounded around me brings problems to me. :( Like, my ex used to be very jealous and overprotective with me. He dont like me hanging out with my frens. :( ANd also, when i have plans with my frens, I have to lie to my parents that im going up with my "girlfriends" which i dont. I dont wanna lie you know but i have to. My parents dont really like me befren with guys. Hmm...how? They cant understand me. I just cant click with girls really. Hope they will understand me. Really. :(  my bro wearing my clothes and me wearing his. :) Till next post. :) T-a-k-e_C-a-r-e! Labels: Wanie WaWa Wondering Why Wednesday, 22 September 2010
 Is September; the month of breaking ups?? Why do i see so many couples broke up?? Wat happened to these couples? Misunderstandings?? I guess. Cant work out?? maybe. For my case. But nvm. There's someone out there would deserve our love more. :) so cheer up! Be strong jyeah!! :D Life have to move on! Let your feelings out. Cry as much as you want and get it over and be happy once again. There's still other ppl care about you. who love you than anything else- Your Family. :) Live your life! In contrary, a friend of mine, made through their 2nd year! Congrats! and all the best! :) ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ Labels: Loves ♥ Tuesday, 21 September 2010
   Labels: emotions right now Thursday, 16 September 2010
had a rough week this wk eventhough ysterday i enjoyed-Raya Outing. it ended. 120910. i didnt expect tht fast. im not over it. im still sad n cant understand why he must leave me. i miss him. :'( no mood to blog a long post. till here. Labels: i will be waiting Sunday, 12 September 2010
 It's been awhile that ive not update here. Today, The third day of Raya. I've been very busy. Sory Fiq. :) I cant sleep. Im watching Cinta Ixora at Suria. Today raya with my fam. Hmm..idk why i feel this way. Hmm. I guess i have to tell him about this. Hmm. and talk things out. :( I guess till here i update for now. Wanna watch TV!! Labels: hatiku tak tenteram |
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