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Friday, 29 October 2010
 281010 - Hairi's dad n Shazwan Bday. :D Happy birthday! It's the first time i met AyieBby's family. And it's also the first time met the parents of my bf. haha! Of coz the nervous feeling was there. First impression is impt! There's alot of food but i ate a lil bcz my stomach is full. :( hah! nvm. His family is nice. I like! :) hehe! i wanna start a new! and hopefully its a success! :) Today problem is so troublesome. Feel like partialing sia. Leceh siol! haha! so shud i? NO! hahA! Im so bored in class and as per normal, im web browsing. -HighCutShoes! I dont why im into it. but its nice! woohoo! i wanna chnge my style! Fuck yeah! (Y) SOOOOO LOVING ITTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i wanna buy leh!!!      Thursday, 28 October 2010
 Here i am in RP lib all by myself. :) i really need my time on my own and i guess now is my best time to be alone. Im feeling better than this morning. Im random. Web browsing now. :D "The call of sadness overflows it tears right through these walls of closed it screams to love like the embrace of a rose my crimson blood is ready to be exposed" "I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves washed it away." Ilikeallthis! i gtg. i'll update soon! Chiow! Tuesday, 26 October 2010
 Thinking Of You - Katy Perry Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes You're like an Indian Summer in the middle of winter Like a hard candy with a surprise center How do I get better once I've had the best? You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh! (Taste your mouth) He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into You're the best, and yes, I do regret How I could let myself let you go Now, now the lesson's learned I touched it, I was burned Oh, I think you should know! 'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes Oh, won't you walk through? And bust in the door and take me away? Oh, no more mistakes 'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay Congratulations, I Hate You - Alesana No one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be So knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise But don't expect me to be happy for you And don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too I don't want your pity... I hate your pity Taste your vanity and it's sweet bitterness As you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams ... You took them all... I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy Beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries Suffer alone in emptiness I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake Disgust lies deep within your empty gaze... Beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries Send stares into your meaningless eyes My envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars Leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine Yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve I'll tear off your face to see your smile. As you build your dreams on my shattered hopes I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy Beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries Send stares into your meaningless eyes Friday, 22 October 2010
Complex. Complicate. Complication. Complications. Complicating. Complicated.  I cant explain how i feel. It's complicated at the moment. It's been a complicated situations for me. But yet, i know, im strong enough to face it. :) “Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life.”  Wednesday, 20 October 2010
Love is space and time measured by the heart.-Marcel Proust  Hey peepos! It's time for me to update! Hehe! I've been busy lately. Yeah, school has just started. Very tiring. I just came back from Tanjung Pinang, Indonesia a few days ago. I got my hair done but im not satisfied as my hair is damaged due to what ive done to my hair (rebonding, dyed). My grandma just sold her bungalow there. Yeah, we are not going back there any soon, i guess. So the next time we will be staying at the hotel. Aww...im missing the memories that i had there. It's been 12 years i've been there and had fun there. The memories that i simply cant be erased were, catching tadpoles at the drains (eww, i know it sound gross. But I did that when i was a lil girl. LOL) Play all around the kampong and never got lost. I've also learnt how to ride a motorbike there. These are my beautiful memories i had there. Anyway, I'm somehow just recovered from fever. Still had coughs. But im feeling better. :) Hmm...How's school so far?? Yeah, this is new Semester, new Class, new people. Oh hell. My grades were either HELL good and bad for the first week. The best grade i had for the first week is B and the worst is F. So fuck yeah! CB. Oh damn. Why am i become much more vulgar lately?? Shut up! oh damn. LOL. hmm.. I just dont feel myself lately. I just realised that I'm not interested what I'm doing in school now. I really want to pursue in Arts badly. :( I dont like to be this way. I wanna draw and design and not the things that doesnt relate to my dream. HELL! Hmm.. Should i quit RP and go for other institution? but my results were aint that good. Or should i just quit school and work instead since I'm not interested in what i'm doing? Haiz. But i still wanna study and get my diploma. I wanna have a good future ahead. Should i retake my 'O' Levels and pursue my dreams in different and better institution?? Haish. IDK. hmm... Why i didnt feel myself lately? Why were my rs didnt work? Is it because of me? I guess it is. Haish. Im still learning and trying to improve on myself and what ive gone wrong. I want a long lasting rs that end up in happy endings. Sometimes I get tired of falling for the wrong person. But i know i deserve better that could really love me for who i am and not what i am. Hmm.. Ive lost myself again and again. :'( When someone found me, he know what kind i am and who i am and i know that's myself. But when that someone has gone away, it's like im gone together with that person and I'm lost myself once again; was left alone in this total darkness. Now, I have to start all over again. And this time i dont wanna fail again. I hope this is the one that im looking for. Bt now it seems that it's hard for me to be devoted to him. Idk why. Im sorry. Im trying to adapt to him and know him. It's just the matter of time. I will give ally best no matter what. I love Hairi. I've removed me tagboard due to some reasons. Haish. Pls, dont get me wrong. Im not like what you think i am. My way may look like what you think. But im not. I dont care what you wanna say about me. I dont have problems with you so can you please dont create problems here. I respect you and you have to respect me. In case, you're the person that i know, and ive any wrong doings towards you please forgive me ayte?? I dont keep any grudge on you. :) One more thing, just show yourself and dont hide identity. If you have problems with me,say it straight to my face not here. Ty and Tc :) Labels: 20102010 Sunday, 10 October 2010
10.10.10 nice date huh? haha! today im gonna meet my Mr vampire. hehe! we gonna enjoy ourselves. Yeah! :) Labels: i miss you Monday, 4 October 2010
 Today is the day that I've waited for. The day of my working life. Im nervous! I feel like paitao-ing. My parents dont know about it. How i am gonna get my bank book from her? I scared she didnt let meh work liao. My heart beats fast. Im afraid of alot of things. Work, Mum, My life. Oh great! :( I chat with Wan last night. Oh god. Whenever i chat with him i get angry and hurt. There's always this feeling. Oh Gosh! I didnt msg for the whole day! My pp8 is low. :( Nut i will top up soon! Im chatting with Ayie now. Haha! He's great! :P Till here. Im abit rushing here to get my sleep/rest. Later i work leh! Gd mornytes peepos! Labels: butterflies in my stomach Friday, 1 October 2010
 Here I am in RP - alone. :) Im here just to spent my time online since in school there's free Wi-Fi and could charge my laptop here. Hehe. Im just browsing through the net; find pictures. It reminds me of O Level Art where I used to do some research. I miss the old times. I love Art. And now, I would want to pick up my art and do some designs stuff for my leisure. School is starting in 1-2 weeks time. Yay! Finally school starts! Im so bored during this holidays. Im sooo looking forward to it!! Anw, I just got a job at Carefour as a cashier. And it starts on Mon, 4 Oct. Haiz. I dont feel like working sia. My mum told me last min that she dont allow me to work after I've got the job. I have not enough money to buy the uniform and take a passport size photo. Damn! -.- Im just afraid that my probs get even more worst. hmm... How?? Shud i work?? :( Labels: How? How? How? |
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